So today.
I started with going to church in my bright blue dress, feeling good and positive if not just a little bit too tired from being out partying last night with girls just about half my age. It was awesome people watching (country western dancing looks fun, creepers are everywhere) and there was lots of giggling.
I got up this morning and went right back to bed. I was pretty sure I was not going to go worship today but then couldn’t stay there. Really wanted to be with my people. I am very happy with my decision – I needed a bit of refocusing on what is really important. If I had stayed in bed I would have wasted the whole day and been feeling down. Instead, though I have not been exactly active, I have gotten a few chores done.
It is pretty customary for a Starbucks trip to happen after Church. My choice this morning was the blackberry lemonade tea. Not a bad decision but making it a 31 ounce tea was not so good. 240 calories. That is half of today’s calories in a drink. It was my hope to do tea and water all day and not eat because generally when I start eating it is hard to stop. I know this so why did I grab the saltines out of the package sitting on the counter?? Just a few at a time over a few hours and shockingly eventually the whole package was empty! Damn – grrr.
Whole row of saltines and blackberry tea = over 700 calories. So not a raging success but I guess not a complete catastrophe either.
According the the fasting calculator DD should be below 500 (471 actually) and up days should be 2350. So tomorrow I will stick to 2000 calories (I know I said I wouldn’t count but I want to be successful and today didn’t turn out as planned so I just want to be mindful.) Blurg. Feeling discouraged after the first day – not giving up though. Toyed with the idea of trying another DD tomorrow but I think I will try sticking to this plan. UD tomorrow!
What did I learn today?
- A smaller tea would have been wiser.
- Planning of some veggies and a little protein might help to avoid the grabbing of quickly available carbs.
- Crackers should be avoided on DDs. (Probably all days.)
Committing to writing is definitely making a difference for me. It is forcing me to stop and process what I am doing.
Continuing on in Love and Grace,
T.
P.S. A couple of hours later now and I am sooooo hungry. Good sign I guess…. maybe? Still have several hours before bed…